courage & fear - take a risk tk

courage to take a risk - set aside your fears bro

what vision has God given me? i need the courage to take a risk...
what needs to be done? what needs to change? what needs to move forward?

then....how do i initiate? how do i launch into the unknown?

is God calling HBC to be a multi-campus environment? let's create an environment to capture those that are being missed.

God - what mission are you calling me to? I can sense in the depths of who I am that you are calling me out to lay things down...I'm struggling to know what that could or might or should look like...give me the courage to figure it out. I don't want to back down on this, because it's getting easier and easier to back down, the further I get into this...

sometimes I struggle with inadequacy - can God really use me?
sometimes I struggle with apathy - do I really love people? (besides my little circle)
sometimes I struggle with confusion/purpose - where is God really calling me? and to who?
sometimes I struggle with the practicality of this whole thing - what about money/benefits and my family?
sometimes I struggle about what other people will think - this goes way back to H.S....
sometimes I struggle with the value of what i'm being called to do - Am I taking the easy way out?
sometimes I fear that God will leave me where I am - Am I just looking for an easy way out?
sometimes I fear that God isn't really calling me to something great - Does he really want to use me?
sometimes I fear that I missed my chance - Did I not take a risk I already should have? Is it too late for me?
sometimes I fear that I won't figure it out - How will I really know what God is calling me to do?
sometimes I fear about my kids and my wife - what will happen to them in all this?

God - give me the courage to set aside my fears - to trust you - to be patient - to not make a dumb decision to go after something I shouldn't - to see you - to know you - to follow you - and to lead others to you...I trust you God