the first shall be last

there seems to be a lot coming at me right now...i'm trying to come to terms with this idea of the american dream - and that the first shall be last, and the last shall be first

"So the last will be first, and the first will be last." Matthew 20:16
"Here it is again, the Great Reversal: many of the first ending up last, and the last first." Matthew 20:16 - The Message

This is actually a parable about God's generosity...and of man's jealousy. I'm trying to explain to my 4yr old son that he doesn't have to be the first one in the door, every time we come home. So I've been explaining this concept that the first shall be last, and the last first - but I had to pause, to consider the true meaning.

And it certainly relates to my current struggle...balancing wealth and faith. It's really clear that I have too much "stuff", and I spend too much time surfing the net for more stuff. It really is a bit consuming, and really hints at where I'm finding my satisfaction...

...although I'm becoming more satisfied with not really knowing what God has in store for me, but just accepting the fact that he's good and has a unique plan for me. I'm ready to take a step of faith but that step is still really unclear to me. I don't want to limit what God is calling me to do....I do know that God has gifted me for more than engineering...I have this passion for more right now - but God is calling me to be patient, to really listen to him, and I've been reminded not to miss chances to serve him in a new way...